Spending my birthday in three different states.
Today is my 24th birthday and I started it in Colorado with my parents, sister, and little brother, lunch in Arizona with my oldest sister and nephew, and now I’m on my way to Texas to end it with my soon-to-be husband! I’ve been traveling a lot lately and it’s hard to feel grounded when your heads in the sky, but I wouldn’t have it any other way. I know this season of my life won’t last so I’m enjoying it as much as possible. Although I’ve probably spent more time in airports than I have at home this month, I know I’m lucky to be able to come home to a love that actually practices making my birthday meal.
23 has been more than I ever dreamed it could be and the gratitude in my heart is heavy. Simply put, life feels right. Elaborately put, this year I set out to be more intentional with how I spent my time, money, and thoughts + I can honestly say I have grown into someone I am happy (not-disgusted) to be. While I still have a long way to go, and I know I may never get there – I’m happy I grew, I learned, I spoke, I loved, and I tried. I know my character, and I know what I value which is something I couldn’t really tell you before…
Life is crazy, and most days it’s hard to feel present. I have always been in this constant state of what’s next, what’s next, what’s next, and I think this is the first time I’ve really, I don’t know, just lived. I let myself feel. I let myself love. I let myself forgive. I really needed this time to recharge and I don’t know what’s next, but I know I’ll find out whether I’m eager or not. For so long I’ve put such a huge emphasis on time, but I realize years are made up of much more than that. It’s made of connections, laughter, and growth. That’s what life is about.
I never imagined being a wife at 24 + connecting my life with another human being (cue panic).I never imagined actually loving what I get to do for work and being challenged everyday (cue more panic). I never imagined living away from the only family I’ve ever known (and even more)… but all these things, I know are really great things. I’m not sure how it’ll all play out, but I am pretty sure of myself and the relationships that continue to support me and for the people that think I’m a better person than I deserve to be thought as.
Anyways, here’s another year to un-learning everything I ever thought was true.
Thanks for sticking by my side!